my dream

i just remembered i used to dream about foods a lot... when i was cheffing back in days, i baked bread every mornings, made desserts, pastry etc... i used to think a lot about food all the time. not so much these days, I'm not so obsessed funny enough. (maybe when i went int to rehab, my obsession to food subsided????) in my dream, i was kneading bread...and panicking.... i don't remember why i was panicking... anyway, i used to loooove kneading bread and baking. i used to tell commis chefs " kneading bread is just like giving loving massage to your girlfriend!(most of chefs were boys!) " they liked that. and funny thing was that when i was angry my bread looked like being angry. when i was happy i baked happy bread! home baked bread ( or anything) is the bast thing! smell comes out from oven when baking.... ah, Divine... i don't eat bread anymore now. but still, i love smell of it! something comfy about it. or maybe it reminds me of my cheffing days??? and feeling nostalgic??? when i feel like that, i always forget how hard my life was. well, i made my life hard... never mind. anyway, my favo bread i used to bake were foccacia bread. bit like making pizza, using different toppings. i learnt it bake at first restaurant i used to work in shoreditch. then i moved restaurant in Soho. there, we used to make beautiful dough and foccacia and cibata. the restaurant in Soho was modern British, we made starter in mornings, wait till froth up. then add some more flour(good organic flour) and mix. all morning during lunch service, remembered to stretch out and punch the dough.  olive oil the top, cling film it and put into walk-in fridge for next day. we used to make 2 big bowls every morning, and bake. in that case, dough get really stretchy and when put on trays, gives lovely texture(looked and felt very silky too) and flavour. then more extra virgin olive oil on top, put some topping; rosemary and sea salt, red onion and thyme, roasted garlic and peppers...... oh, i made once i rolled foccacia dough with roasted garlic inside. it was lovely but the chef didn't like it. he liked simple. anyway bake them for about 40mins or so till sounds hollow when tap the top. and brown and crispy. beautiful. same as ciabatta bread, stretch out onto baking tray with lots of flour. when they were baked, they had lovely pattern on top. i loved the chewiness of the bread. i tried to make bagle a few times, not quite succeeded to bake something i satisfy. well, i would like to start baking different kinds of breads again. just need to find time.... yummy yummy