My Yoga Practice--- Slow Flow...Really Slow...

Pretty Autumn colours at the Anglesey Abbey

23/Oct/2015

I was feeling really down and really peeed off with work and my life in general, I blamed on the changing the season bit. Marcus and I went to Devon--Dartmoor a few weeks ago for a week or so and I really had a fantastic break. Couldn't fault anything we did.  However, on our return, I started feeling really down, reality hit...going back to work, pay bills, etc. Usual holiday blues.

Anyway, I could not get up back myself for a few weeks, I missed my yoga classes I love ( I was home practising), then I did my back in a bit.  Then this early week, someone said something about me at work which knocked my confidence off. I felt even more grumpy and fed up, getting really down.... 

Just about working on letting go, I went to my favo yoga class on Thursday evening. That seemed to lifted some of my feelings off, they all came up, became feeling really angry and pissed off. I kind of took it out on Marcus, bless him, really patience with me. I was tired and grumpy all day that day. luckily I'm having 5 days off, so I got time to chill out before going back to work and kill someone.... 

On Friday evening, I went Y12SR which Jacqui facilitates, I really enjoyed it. It's different from open classes, we share (just like NA/AA meetings), and do some asanas. It was even slower than her usual Y12SR class, it was really slow. But it seemed to clear or helped to shift something inside me, when we finished, I was feeling quite vulnerable. 

I told Jacqui how I felt and she told me because it was so slow, there was no where to escape from feelings/emotions I was feeling. I needed to feel it, face it and deal with it. I felt everything, differences between (normal speed) vinysa flow and the class we just did, how I moved, how all transitions to how I was feeling, how my body was feeling and what I was doing and whole lot. It was amazing. And I was really touched. I had tears on my face. I was sad and the same time I was overwhelmed with the beauty of slow flow.

Hung on, really? Does it happen in participating a Yoga class? Yes, it does. I can only speak form my own experience, not someone else's. 

It was like: when you listen to beautiful music or even someone singing, it touches your heart and tears coming out. It was like that. I love her slow vinyasa flow yoga. It's something really special. When I'm feeling grumpy it helps me to move my energy inside and evens out/ balance. When I'm happy it helps me to have unconditional love. 

Jacqui told me I got my connections back, yup, feel more myself again. 

Feel like I'm growing (not my height...) with my practice.

My Yoga Practice---First time self-practice at the studio

 Our wise Yoda was away that week. She gave me and my yoga buddy Lee spare keys to open the studio for self-practice. She told us she couldn't get covers while she was away, but open the space for self-practice and free to use. 

So, Lee was opening up for 2 sessions and I was opening for 4 sessions. I'd never been self-practiced in the studio and never been inside without teachers. So I was a bit nervous. This was what happened.

22/Aug/2015 Saturday

Our first self-practice session, 4 of us turned up. I thought it was good start.

I felt a bit awkward without Jacqui, feeling uncomfortable. More like, "I-don't-know-what-to-do".
When 9:30am came, Lee said: "Shall we start?" Then all of us slowly beginning to practice.

I started off with quick meditation, then did some Pranayama. After that, I slowly warm myself up to standing, balancing, core work etc...Finished with supported savasana.

We all were sweating. I sweat a lot, just like when I was in Jacqui's class. Good job I had my towel with me...

I was looking at my notebook time to time to check what I was going to go next, but ended up changing them anyway. I wanted to practice sequences I made up. It was good I did that, Sometimes I didn't feel right doing it, sometimes o.k. It depended on how I felt or not-quite-right....

Then I realised that morning, it was just like cheffing. When I was a chef, making up menus and recipes, I combined different flavours might work, experiment then made/cooked them up, tasted then made adjustments. They might need to add some more herbs, seasoning or even change ingredients completely! Either loved it or didn't liked it. 

Writing a class plan/or individual is for me much like that. Think about your clients, make something work for them, and require some imagination and creativity. I love anything creative. I'm not particularly good at it, but I know what I'm good at....

While we were in savasana, I felt same energy I feel sometimes in Jacqui's class in evenings. Almost as If spirit people/ energy was swaying through between us, dancing away and it was fantastic. When I opened my eyes on my sitting position/ sitting qi-gong I was doing, it was very quiet and peaceful. It was like we were between air/space. Fantastic.


That was good start. On Thu practice, I was on my own at the studio. I had fantastic self practice. I did just over 90mins, I mediated 20mins after that, I felt it was just natural progression to meditate. I just wanted to feel what I was feeling. Feeling of peace and between space. "nothing" no sound, no air, no nothing. It was very still. Hard to explain, it was like at the same time I became a particle in the space. 

Yoga does some funny thing, doesn't it...

It was the day only me turned up for self-practice...

My Yoga Practice--- Recycling

Made some eye pillows!

Aug/15

I had a couple pairs of jeans I couldn't fit anymore. I tried to sell on eBay, but not succeeded. People on eBay are funny on trousers. I feel that people buy more tops that trousers, same as when I worked in the charity shop. always trousers left out, people loved shopping on tops. Anyway, I had this urge that I wanted to do some sewing. So, I unpicked my old jeans, I made a yoga mat bag.

Made a bit too long, but am sure in time, it get shorter...

My sewing skills are terrible, I still not sure 100% how to use my sewing machine. It was given to me when Sylvia ( my surrogate mum in London)passed away, her husband Tom gave me. Since then, I treasured it, and time to time it comes out from the cupboard to be used. 

Pocket for my chalk!

This sewing machine, really old. Vintage 70's, and still going. It really needs good servicing. also, detachable leg got broken. I walked past a couple of sewing shop in the town the other day, I looked at beautiful machines on the windows with envy. It must be easier to use machine like that and then I thought "am I going to use very often?" 

Anyway, Marcus gave me some spare buckwheat shells which left over from filling up his bolster. What do I do with it??? So, I made some eye pillows. I got some shirts and blouses from a charity shop (everything £1.99) and filled with some beans, buckwheat and dried home grown lavender. That was success! I love them. 

All covers were made from shirt and blouses

Reason why I tend to recycle what I have in my wardrobe or purchase cheap, suitable things to re-make things out is for me, easier to do that buying expensive fabric. And more fun. I feel brave enough to cut, chop and wildly sew them, if I buy new fabric and pay lots of money for it, I feel gutted If I make mistakes and end up chucking away. 

Anyway, I made two eye pillows for my mum, without lavender. I wasn't sure if she would like lavender. I remember she used to moan smell of perfume or any kind of perfume smell. Hope she likes them.

It feels good when I have some inspiration, I do look at some website and get inspired. 

Lovely.

Recently, I did some yoga teaching practise on my friends, they all liked my sessions. I need to do more teaching practise, and I will take my time to do that. I've been learning lots by teaching/sharing yoga with my friends. 

And I enjoy very much.

My Yoga Practice---Y12SR Workshop, U.K

Yoga at the boiler house in Bury St Edmunds

2-5/ April/2015

It was the first time ever Y12SR had a space holders workshop in U.K. When Jacqui told me about it, I was pretty excited. I would love to explore more about how to integrate yoga and 12 step program. I understood there were similarities between them, when I started leaning about more and more about yoga.

At the same time, I was very nervous...

I applied for my place and paid my fees, since that point onwards, I felt a bit apprehensive. Why? Because, that means we all needed to explore ourselves, going deeper... But I knew that if that happened, it would be the safest place and plenty tools to deal with. 

On the first day, I met my new friends. Spending 4days with people I'd never met (I knew a few of them), I was a bit nervous, but at the end of 4th day, I felt like we had good bond between us. Felt like we went through lot (emotionally) together.

This workshop really made me look at things I'd never really looked at before (didn't come up when I did step work), and tools to deal with. I finally could accept and let go, and feels like lighter now. Moreover, I felt like I got to know myself EVEN better!

The workshop was hard work but fun. One of ladies from Thetford (Dreakkie!) made some beautiful broth for our lunch, she even brought some breads too. Thank you very much!!! OMG, it was fab! Home made broth, I hadn't tasted such lovely soup for long time, last one I had was Marcus's mum's. 

Yummy vegetable broth, "It's got everything in it!"

Drekkie stirring her soup

I went for seconds, of course!

Easter cake was also brought in! Yum Yum

I don't have many female friends, so I was very pleased to get to know those ladies. I said both Nikki (founder of Y12SR) and Jacqui, felt like I was given friends!

Participants were from all over the U.K, about 10 of us ( 9 ladies plus 1 male). Nikki came from U.S.A to hold the workshop. I really enjoyed attending it, thanks to Nikki and Jacqui organising.

Group photo

Me and Nikki

Drekkie & Nikki

I am now looking forward to hold Y12SR class somewhere in the country! Oh, I need to get qualified first yet. I did this course initially to support my recovery. And I feel I have a good foundation of recovery, I now would like to give back by sharing yoga with other recovering addicts or even non addicts. 

Jacqui said they are planning to hold another workshop next year for those missed this one...

Long Weekend & Yummy nik-naks in St Guilhem-le-Desert

14-21/March/2015

we went to South of France for our short break. I really needed that. Chilling out in the medieval village in France, how romantic.

We went there before, Marcus went there many times, he took his mum there, his clients there for qi-gong retreats. Sure, it's wonderful place to do some qi gong and yoga.

One evening, I couldn't sleep, woke up in the middle of the night. So I went down stairs and did some yoga and qi going for an hour or so... I slept o.k after that.

What excites me the most visiting another country is; food. I love my food. and shopping from a health food shop. There in France, where we visited, there was a very nice health food shop. As usual, we did some trips there to purchase our favo food. And I bought some souvenires ( Sugar free vegan chocolate. No sweetener either. It was espresso flavour and delish!) for my yoga teacher, Marcus's mum, and myself. Yum Yum.

This 100% buckwheat pasta tubes were yummy, we had them a few nights during our stay. Why can't we have them here in England? Flakes were for our breakfast, we had them with soya yogurt and fruits. 

We always keep our food fairly healthy. Until I see pastries! I love my cakes and pastries, when I'm in France, I want to eat yummy pastries. why not? At the end of the day, they do the best of French Patisseries. 

I didn't eat as many as I normally do, as I started feeling in my body when I do wheat and sugar, getting old???

I love the rustic pastries, nothing beats home made!

While we were in the village, we found a little shop selling home made cookies and cup cakes. Looked very nice, I could not resist so, on our last day there, I finally purchased after looking at them almost everyday.... And it was worth it, worth itching my back and pain in my foot, yummy cookies.

The lady in the shop told me they were called packet de cookie (I'm pretty sure my spelling is incorrect!). In olden days, pilgrimages ate those cookies. Very French, baked till brown. I love how they bake. So as Italians! 

Oh, one more thing I ate and absolutely loved was pistachio nougat. OMG, it was more delish than what I expected. Took me a few days but I ate all. Yum Yum.

Can't wait go on another holiday!

My Yoga Practice---Breathing is wonderful

Met some fun people in France!

6/6/2015

I've been really busy at work. When I came back from work, I felt so tired, all I wanted to do was snuggle into my bed and watch youtube. Even that, about 20mins in watching some vids, I fell asleep... woke up in the middle of the night wondering what time it was, whether morning or slept through to following day... My evenings were like this for last 3 weeks or so, being a little pissed off (I need to be assertive to say NO) completing lots of paperwork.... (but I'm a workaholic...sad...)

Some evenings, I missed my yoga practice. Too tired to go out again and that's where home practice comes in. I used to do lots of home practice with youtube vids, but these days, I'm too either lazy or destructed by "other things" ie; "oh, I need a cup of tea", "I just noticed it's a bit dusty, need to clean it NOW".... that kinda thing... When I do home practice, Every other poses seem like, child pose. "Oh, let me rest here again, need to breath, expand on my lower back..."

I just don't challenge enough to myself anymore. I get a bit board of youtube vids to be honest, so I started making up my own sequence or what we do in our Yoda (wise like Yoda)'s class. And it's working for me when I'm in the mood to do home practice. That was one of MANY reasons why I love going to classes/yoga studio, practising in group environment encourage me to slow down and focus on where I am on my mat.

When I don't go to classes as often as I normally do, (also due to my tendinitis, my local Chinese doctor also confirmed it for me...) really feel in my body. I went 2 restorative yoga class by Siobhan (she's also my Yoda) and felt good. Yoga practice gives me space to breath.

Yesterday I was walking with my client in the town, and I did deep breath. And felt so light from inside and outside, then realised I had such a busy morning (I hadn't stopped), it was like I forgot to breath till then. I saw what I was doing (in my head, all jobs I did, all the thing I did that morning), and it was as if; I wasn't breathing, run, run, and more running!  I felt so good when I breathed that morning. Amazing feeling as if everything shifted. Then I realised how wonderful breathing was. That changed all again about how I see "life".

It happened before. It was due to my tendinitis again, before our practice in my Yoda's class, we were chatting about injuries. I told her when I engaged on core on my left side, I didn't feel weight on my wrist much. I could push and use my finger tips etc. Then my Yoda asked me "Is it only left side?" I wondered what she meant? So, this in my head, we began practising. Soon I realised if I really focus on my core (again) weight seem to lift (still hard but feel lighter) and hold better. Also not lot heavy weight on my both wrists. That change everything all aspects of my life. I told Yoda that night. It may sound a bit dramatic, but it was revolutionary for me.

I persevere with what all yoga teachers say about core and breathing. I feel like I finally have started to grasp what they mean.

Then this makes me wonder.. it is really practising, practising and more practising. And I just believe in myself I will get there (where?) in the end....

Again, I just need to keep going......

My Yoga Practice---Going through Process

Lovely sunrise in Greece♥️

1/May/2015

It's been a few weeks since my wrist hurrrts (my Yoda reckons tendinitis), I was gutted that I wasn't able to do yoga (my Yoda's sexy slow Vinyasa flow) as many as I normally do... But I found out ( the wise Yoda told me) to use wedged block to do one of her plank sequences and I like it. So, I finally let go of this dramatic thoughts that " I won't be able to practice yoga anymore!!". Not sure how I came up to this, but there are lots of asanas I can do without pressing too much weight on my wrist. I'm a bit hypochondriac and I've been always this way since when I was a child. I know where I got it from, my Dad!

Anyway, last a few months (wow, so quick!), I was having some sort of process and especially news of my friend, passed away with addiction which hit me hard. Last year, another friend of mine killed herself after taking someone else's anti-psychotic drugs. Every time hear someone dies from O.D (over dose) or suicide, feels like someone slashed my heart from inside. It doesn't have to be this way. 

We all have a choice, It's my choice to stay clean and commit to my recovery. I decided that whatever happens, I won't pick up. I promised to myself. I understand that some have some complex mental illness with their addiction, I hope those who have find the solution which suit for them.

One yoga classes I attended, tears came up a few times. Once was when we did pigeon, then a half load of fish, I suddenly overwhelmed with feeling of unconditional love, then sadness came up. Tears fell down on my face. Then I realised I hadn't grieved about my mate. I hadn't really processed about my other friend had HIV+, so tears coming up, and couldn't stop it. 

Other occasion, I attended 4-day workshop (at the boiler house, Bury St Edmunds) on Y12SR with Nikki Mayers (tell you more later), tears came up after the weekend on one yoga session. That was for my childhood. It was very powerful!

Yoga does some funny things, doesn't it.

Just before I went away to France, I had yet another awesome yoga session. It was very electriccy. When I was on lunge twist on left, looked at my finger tip, here it was on the edge of the ceiling, a white light flashed once and disappeared.

Wow, amazing, sometimes I feel (don't happen often) like as if there was outer body line out side of my body and the line vibrates. It's like when I go for a walks in woods, wind of energy touching me through, a bit like that. 

This week, I only attended one class so far, I've been trying to rest my wrist, instead, I've been doing some Yin yoga at home. The same as last week, I only went one class last week, it's not like me... I love going to yoga class, I love being in group to practice. Quite often, I feel "united" at the end of session, feeling of wholeness with everyone in the class. Yes, yoga means Union, and it's doing a good job of it. 

Anyway, it was an super awesome class, I really enjoyed it. Even just 20mins in, I felt so good from inside and outside, I bet I had a big smile on my face. I couldn't stop thinking to myself "This is it. I love it!" When I was on Savasana, I felt so relax yet felt like someone turned my electric switch on, it was very much like that. I told the Yoda it was an awesome practice ( I was totally spaced out!), and she gave me a big hug! How sweet of her, she's a lovely yoga teacher!

I've started practising Qi gong again, combination of both, are super super amazing...

My Yoga Practice---Gratitude

Can't wait for our walks in France!!!

26/Jan/2015

This morning practice showed me my gratitude towards how my life was/ what I had today.

I've been every now again, practising Marmalade.. sorry, Mermaid pose. I asked my dear Yoda ( I read her status on her facebook page, she likes Yoda! Me too, I've got a painting of Yoda in my bedroom!), Jacqui, how to get into the pose. I can't balance well on it, yet a class I went last year ( or some vids on youtube), this pose was randomly put in without building up. Then I felt the defeat. "I can't do it!". It put me off completely from practicing yoga full stop.

To be honest, this pose has my favo flavours; back bend, hip opener and quadriceps stretch (since I stared running again, feel the stretch and nooooice...). Yet I can not get in to the pose. So frustrating.

Then this morning,  the Yoda took me step by step ( I was the only one in the studio this morning at 6:30am class, it was like a private workshop yey!) and told me to practice the steps she showed me. Initially, I wanted to get into it then, but I accepted that was not possible. Good thing about this was giving me more confident and motivation.  I decided to add to my home practice.

After the class, we had a quick chat and confirmed me that the pose like that needed to be progressed step by step (bit by bit). It's lots of things going on both physically and energetically. 

I also asked Siobhan, she told me she was still working on the pose, more like King Pigeon pose after 10 years.... In her class, we did hip openers and quadriceps stretch (dancer etc) so, I was happy with that too.

Anyway, this chat concluded me; "I am happy with where I am at, and practice step by step. Take my time" Otherwise, I would be really hurry to get into it and injure myself, which I don't want. I am grateful for where I am at, how far I come both my yoga journey and my drug addiction.

When I lose my gratitude towards my life/myself, I still write 10 gratitude lists and read aloud to myself in front of a mirror. It used to be really hard to do that especially when I had zero self-esteem. Seeing myself in mirror and telling myself "I love you" was super hard. Yes, it was me who married myself (after my ex boyfriend dumped me for another woman and got her pregnant ), it was the best thing EVER both finishing with him and marrying me which showed me learning to build relationship with myself, forgive myself and love myself (unconditional love) and it worked (after hard work!). 

Now my relationship with myself is like an old married couple, ups and downs, still love myself and laugh with myself, enjoying my own company and going great.

Yoga always takes me to where I need to be and remind myself how far I come. I never expected to my yoga practice would take me this deep when I began the journey. 

More to come? 
I'm ready.

My Yoga Practice---Heart Opener and Cherry Stone

Famous bench in the village in St Guilhem le desert in France

17/Jan/2015

Cor blimey, that was good practice. I go to Jacqui's class quite often, but doesn't get any easier on her plank sequence! Still find it hard work. Gets intense and but timing of the release is beautiful. Love it.

Today's savasana was fantastic and very trippy! I love that when I have savasana like that. All seem to depends on what's been going on my life and myself both mentally and physically. I had a bit pissed-off also stressed week....

I was a bit pissed off on Wednesday at work, our team meeting. I felt like one of my colleagues /support workers criticised my work. I know now, she probably didn't mean it, but I sometimes take things seriously and personally, I took it as a personal attack ( I was doing  it to myself, silly me...). I spoke to a couple of my colleagues and I felt a bit better, still, I wasn't happy.  Without shit like this, work is stressed ( b'cause I'm perfectionist, doesn't help...) enough, I really didn't need it. That was why I was really looking forward to my practice, moving my body!!!

On savasana, I felt an invisible cherry stone (not sure why that was...) came out from my mouth and physically I needed to open my mouth. Soon after that, I saw a sliver spoon lightly tapped my throat and chest. What did those mean?

I left the studio feeling a bit cheerful. Walked back home, looking up the sky and admiring beautiful shining stars and Pleiades. (I used to do that when I was on my way home being off my head...)

Following morning (6:30am - 8:00am), only myself in the studio with Yoda (Jacqui), had chat and she did a mini-workshop (ended up like that!) to splits and heart openers. It was a short class but I could not tell you how much I felt better after that.

I shared this on 12 step yoga class on the evening. Jacqui's feed back made me "WOW". Amazing how body knows and tells you what it needs and feeling, and savasana is the time for that. My feeling from  being criticised sat on heart and obviously needed to every heart opener to release it. My body wanted to tell me through yoga (Indian way, Chinese might say different things...?).

So powerful and another magic experience.

My Yoga Practice---Vinyasa Workshop

Nearly time for walks in France again!

11/Jan

I attended lovely Helen Shepherd's Vinyasa workshop at the boiler House in my local yoga studio where I regularly attend my classes. I really enjoyed it

There were about 10 of us, including Jacqui (my Yoda). They were lovely bunch, mainly from Helen's clients from Norfolk (I would imagine..) After the practice, Helen had raw food workshop, But I had to go home for work, so, I couldn't stay for yummy smoothies and some food.....

I was a bit nervous to start off with (I always feel nervous and shy when unfamiliar people are around...), after 20-30mins in, felt the nervousness going away, started to relax. I felt everyone did, we all started laughing and smiling, giggling (that's what I do usually...) till Helen took us to.... Parrivrtta Hasta Padangusthasana then, to the side..... I don't really like it, it's hard work and my legs don't stay high and out.... All I could hear in my head was; "OUCH!" 

Balancing and leg lifts are hard wok for me, some days are better than other days. My balance that day was not very good. Never mind. I had some fun and giggles on balancing poses. 

Helen is a lovely yoga teacher, personality of yoga teacher counts how yoga class will be. I love nice laid back classes with chilled out people/students (with some push). I don't like competitive yoga classes and calling it Yoga. Classes like that, completely missing a point of yoga. 

Anyway, I always feel a bit left out, feel like I'm missing out on some fun when I have to leave early. I want to communicate and get to know with yoga buddies! That is the main reason I like getting lift back home with my yoga buddies ( I live walking distance from the studio, but my yoga buddies are very kind, they offer me a lift back!), so that I can have a chat.

Funny, I am always like that, haven't changed a bit since when I was a school girl, don't like missing out on fun! So, does it mean I'm not grateful for what I have? Or not happy with what I do? Not content? But today, I just wanted to be in company of those yoga ladies.

It doesn't happen often to me... I'm very shy yet love socialising and chat with people as long as in small environment....

So, thanks to lovely Helen for lovely Sunday morning practice, it defo set my weekend for work. (Practice keeps me calm and on form!)

Can't wait for the next one! 

Pre christmas practice....Glad it's all over!

Oh, can't wait to go back to Majorca!

Pre festive holiday practice

I really miss my yoga class, due to the festive season, there's no yoga classes.....

Before all this happened, my practice was awesome, I felt feeling "unite" whatever that was, with all people in the studio came together, that was what I felt like. It was wonderful, I sometimes look around during a class, it's beautiful, everyone seems to really into it, not sure how to explain it, almost as if we became one, I know it sounds a bit corny, but that was how I felt like.

On 19 & 20th/Dec morning, I went really deep in savasana, I was tripping out. I saw a rusty door in dark, but I could see light behind the closed rusty door, then it opened and I went through.... It was amazing, when the class finished, I asked Jacqui, my teacher. And she told me I didn't need to analyse it. I tend to analyse quite a bit, that's another thing I do and need to let go....

On Monday 22nd/Dec evening practise, I again fully enjoyed and appreciated how lucky I was to be able to attend such a great class.... Tuesday 23rd was my last class I could go, that was lovely Siobhan's Hatha class. I loved it. 

So, all these wonderful classes I attended, now, I'm really missing it. It's been a week since my last practice with either Jacqui or Siobhan. This is my observation, Christmas isn't really convenient for me! I now need to wait for another week....

Then I had an idea, I booked a class in my local yoga centre ( do you remember the place I used to work in the kitchen? ). Initially I booked two classes, but I needed to cancel one due to my work.

It was supposed to be vinyasa flow, but it was hot yoga/ Ashtanga practice! It was really hot, it was nice small class and liked sweating away. The teacher was an ashtanga teacher and a bit mad. 

This is my observation, either "he means well, but misunderstood being him" or utter t***, I spoke to him after the class a bit, I was not expecting to have full conversation, as his students for next class walked in to the studio really invasive manner (at least felt that way). Anyway, he asked me questions and I answered them however I felt I was put on a spot and felt like didn't have much time to answer his questions. Then he went on a bit (which I didn't understand what he was talking about), he concluded those questions and answered himself and almost as if he had whole conversation by himself. 

I walked out from the yoga centred feeling "something not sit right with me" feeling... not sure what it was, until I processed what it was said after a few days or so. I'm not going on much about it, but made me think "are there lot of those people out there who are soooo full of themselves teaching yoga, and it doesn't say anything about that on any yoga literature...." well, this is my journey, finding people who are pretentious, me being humble and having humility sometimes looks a bit stupid. Hey, as long as my sides are clean, that's all matters. (I learnt having humility, being humble from 12step meetings I used to go to. Those are great place to learn basis of spirituality if you are an addict!)

Anyway, I again, took a few things home I agreed and liked from what he said, so, I'm happy with that too.

New Year!

Happy New Year, thank god, it's all over till the end of this year again, Christmas has gone, now opened up to 2015. I've been practising yoga at home, I can't wait to go back to my routine. Jacqui's class has started this week, my first class will be tomorrow night. 

I seemed to over stretched my upper back muscle during my home practice last month, got a huge knot, and really uncomfortable. I hope I can get rid of this soon......