My Yoga Practice--- Slow Flow...Really Slow...

Pretty Autumn colours at the Anglesey Abbey

23/Oct/2015

I was feeling really down and really peeed off with work and my life in general, I blamed on the changing the season bit. Marcus and I went to Devon--Dartmoor a few weeks ago for a week or so and I really had a fantastic break. Couldn't fault anything we did.  However, on our return, I started feeling really down, reality hit...going back to work, pay bills, etc. Usual holiday blues.

Anyway, I could not get up back myself for a few weeks, I missed my yoga classes I love ( I was home practising), then I did my back in a bit.  Then this early week, someone said something about me at work which knocked my confidence off. I felt even more grumpy and fed up, getting really down.... 

Just about working on letting go, I went to my favo yoga class on Thursday evening. That seemed to lifted some of my feelings off, they all came up, became feeling really angry and pissed off. I kind of took it out on Marcus, bless him, really patience with me. I was tired and grumpy all day that day. luckily I'm having 5 days off, so I got time to chill out before going back to work and kill someone.... 

On Friday evening, I went Y12SR which Jacqui facilitates, I really enjoyed it. It's different from open classes, we share (just like NA/AA meetings), and do some asanas. It was even slower than her usual Y12SR class, it was really slow. But it seemed to clear or helped to shift something inside me, when we finished, I was feeling quite vulnerable. 

I told Jacqui how I felt and she told me because it was so slow, there was no where to escape from feelings/emotions I was feeling. I needed to feel it, face it and deal with it. I felt everything, differences between (normal speed) vinysa flow and the class we just did, how I moved, how all transitions to how I was feeling, how my body was feeling and what I was doing and whole lot. It was amazing. And I was really touched. I had tears on my face. I was sad and the same time I was overwhelmed with the beauty of slow flow.

Hung on, really? Does it happen in participating a Yoga class? Yes, it does. I can only speak form my own experience, not someone else's. 

It was like: when you listen to beautiful music or even someone singing, it touches your heart and tears coming out. It was like that. I love her slow vinyasa flow yoga. It's something really special. When I'm feeling grumpy it helps me to move my energy inside and evens out/ balance. When I'm happy it helps me to have unconditional love. 

Jacqui told me I got my connections back, yup, feel more myself again. 

Feel like I'm growing (not my height...) with my practice.