My Yoga Practice---Breathing is wonderful

Met some fun people in France!

6/6/2015

I've been really busy at work. When I came back from work, I felt so tired, all I wanted to do was snuggle into my bed and watch youtube. Even that, about 20mins in watching some vids, I fell asleep... woke up in the middle of the night wondering what time it was, whether morning or slept through to following day... My evenings were like this for last 3 weeks or so, being a little pissed off (I need to be assertive to say NO) completing lots of paperwork.... (but I'm a workaholic...sad...)

Some evenings, I missed my yoga practice. Too tired to go out again and that's where home practice comes in. I used to do lots of home practice with youtube vids, but these days, I'm too either lazy or destructed by "other things" ie; "oh, I need a cup of tea", "I just noticed it's a bit dusty, need to clean it NOW".... that kinda thing... When I do home practice, Every other poses seem like, child pose. "Oh, let me rest here again, need to breath, expand on my lower back..."

I just don't challenge enough to myself anymore. I get a bit board of youtube vids to be honest, so I started making up my own sequence or what we do in our Yoda (wise like Yoda)'s class. And it's working for me when I'm in the mood to do home practice. That was one of MANY reasons why I love going to classes/yoga studio, practising in group environment encourage me to slow down and focus on where I am on my mat.

When I don't go to classes as often as I normally do, (also due to my tendinitis, my local Chinese doctor also confirmed it for me...) really feel in my body. I went 2 restorative yoga class by Siobhan (she's also my Yoda) and felt good. Yoga practice gives me space to breath.

Yesterday I was walking with my client in the town, and I did deep breath. And felt so light from inside and outside, then realised I had such a busy morning (I hadn't stopped), it was like I forgot to breath till then. I saw what I was doing (in my head, all jobs I did, all the thing I did that morning), and it was as if; I wasn't breathing, run, run, and more running!  I felt so good when I breathed that morning. Amazing feeling as if everything shifted. Then I realised how wonderful breathing was. That changed all again about how I see "life".

It happened before. It was due to my tendinitis again, before our practice in my Yoda's class, we were chatting about injuries. I told her when I engaged on core on my left side, I didn't feel weight on my wrist much. I could push and use my finger tips etc. Then my Yoda asked me "Is it only left side?" I wondered what she meant? So, this in my head, we began practising. Soon I realised if I really focus on my core (again) weight seem to lift (still hard but feel lighter) and hold better. Also not lot heavy weight on my both wrists. That change everything all aspects of my life. I told Yoda that night. It may sound a bit dramatic, but it was revolutionary for me.

I persevere with what all yoga teachers say about core and breathing. I feel like I finally have started to grasp what they mean.

Then this makes me wonder.. it is really practising, practising and more practising. And I just believe in myself I will get there (where?) in the end....

Again, I just need to keep going......