Here I am...

Cute cheeky stray dog we made a friend with 

26/09/2017

It seems to be long while since last time I wrote. My job took over my life and finally got stressed. I left my job this September. My last shift was a sleep in shift in my favourite house and with customers. Don't get me wrong, I loved what I did (support worker for adult with learning disability) and I loved the job very much. But sometimes, think to myself, I can not do everything. I would like to, but it's impossible. There were opportunities were thrown at me time to tome, however, my life and me were so packed and occupied with the work I was doing, there were no space to fit anything in. Then, one day, I asked "I want my life to be...... I want to do......" 6 month or so later, things started happening. Funny, how things happen. I made decisions and actioned, that was all I did. I sometimes think, maybe I did not ask specific enough, quitting my job and have time in my hand now, was not how I hoped to happen, but happened anyway. 

My mate said: "Be careful, what you wish for..."

How I left my job was a bit dramatic, I know I am a drama queen, I made such a drama out of it. But that much needed I suppose. I had a nervous break down from stress from work, it triggered when one of my agency colleague had a go at me for the decision I did not make. Hello??? How dear she and her mate blaming me for things were not mine, in front of our customer. And she said she was not happy, my stress level was up to the top etc. As passive aggressive, I said to her "Thank you, I am going away for a few weeks".  As she left the house, she replied 'well, you need it" I swallowed what I wanted to say (I wanted to say to her to f***k off 😁 ). I exploded soon after that. Anyway, I got a sick note next day, I went off sick until I went away. (not like me..) Then I decided to hand in my notice. I felt so fed up and I didn't want to do it anymore. It was builds up and decision I made I felt right thing to do. Soon after that, I had a job to go to too. I offered some hours I could teach Yoga in the local studio too. So, I was hopeful. 

After my Birmingham trip ( this is another story, I had some cries!), I was looking to set myself up, booked some hours to teach in the studio, booking a training day with the new organisation etc. Then I got let down from the company after 1 month in, I did not even started the job! Anyway, I felt so fed up waiting round, so I quit there too. Now I am in the middle of waiting to start a new job at another care company. Too much waiting round, now I haven't been working for 2 month. My training has been booked in two weeks time. Oh, dear. I am really short of cash and spending my savings I've been saving up to go to Japan in Spring.... Gutted that I had to start spending.... my first savings in years it is! Never mind. 

I also applied a job in the local Neal's Yard too, but after discussions in the interview and a weekend , I decided to not to go ahead. This was due to my time schedule and time and shift hours which not able to accommodate etc. Well, at least I tried. The manager suggested me to apply as therapist/ yoga teacher to teach their upstair "studio" every day for 2 hours. I was going to go ahead for it but I decided not to. They are now put price up to £20 per hour to hire for only a small room equipped with yoga props. Perhaps, 6 people can fit into the "studio".  I 'll stick with beautiful "The Boiler House" to start my classes this week....

Here I am now, spending time at home sorting my life feels right at moment for me. My new life as Yoga sharer ( I don't like call my self yoga teacher...instructor or facilitator sound more right to me), I love it. I have now been teaching/ sharing yoga for 6 month, and fun. Nearly there to be on the track again. 

Life is... full of fun, up and down, tears and laughs and what I make of it....

Cat resting on the chair in the Tavana in Pelion

I found some photos from my last big holiday in Greece, So I though I share them on my blog!