My yoga practice---this morning

I went to my Saturday class this morning. I like Saturday one, it's 2hours and we practise forearm balancing poses after we do all hard work! It's really worth it. I think because hard work, I feel sense of achievement, bump up my self confidence and self esteem, all good yummy ingredients to be "me".

Well, when the time to practice "falling angel" and "scissor legs side crow",  I started off doing really well. Then, when we moved to scissors leg one, I felt myself losing patience. I felt that last week, but I put that under the carpet, I didn't really want to admit it. Then it brought it up again this morning, I thought It was time to explore what it was making me so impatience. 

After the class, I wanted to hear what my teacher thought and had a quick chat. She shared some of her story of her students too. Kind feel better I am not the only one being like that. Anyway, when I got home, I realised why. I seem to lose my concentration, and "ah, I've been looking forward to do that today" then I started to hurry myself, "let's do it now and get it over with." Almost as if I could tick it off my "to-do-list", that kind of thing. 

I do that at work. I always done it. When I was a chef, I did my M.E.P (prep list), I write a to-do-list at work, I do shopping list, every opportunities, I make lists. And I love ticking off, because I feel like I've done something, I've achieved something. 

For yoga practice, I know now it doesn't work like this, especially for me. I need to leave my excitement aside, and calm myself down, just concentrate what I have in front of me. Do it one by one, remind myself I have time for it. 

Actually it reminds me of when I was cheffing. The last place I used to work in London. Busy morning, lots to do on my "list, I had full of ingredients on my bench. I was in "shit"( very professional term!), my head chef came to me and said: "tidy up every thing, go upstairs and have a fag!" And he started tiding up my bench. I thought he was an bastered, told him I didn't have time for that. But he forced me to do that anyway, and I listened (I had to, had to listened what the head chef said). My bench was empty and cleaned, I went upstairs to smoke a cigarette (I quit this 4 years ago too) . Came back in the kitchen, and started again. Result? Thanks to my lovely head chef (I didn't think that time), It was very smooth. I worked much better, and my products looked happy and tasted even more yummy. It's easy to forget that. I just need to keep remind myself when I'm impatience till it comes natural.

I always smile to myself when I realise how I am, and even laugh at myself, how funny I am. This is another my motto, "don't take things seriously and personally" and smile.